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hallo all... i have some very sad news.
gus passed away last week some time hence the lack of blog, ive been mourning.
i have bought a bobble head fish air freshener in memory of him and will post a picture tomorrow. hes stuck on my dashboard and bobbles where ever i go. he also has googily eyeballs its beautiful.
now its my turn to feel sick hopefully i dont die cos that wouldnt be much fun at all
i just got told off by my lecturer cos i was being a distraction to 4 of the guys in my class - oops
i should probably go and make my website...
ill add to this later i think its been a very morbid post nothing positive. will find something positive to write.
x

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re-evaluation..
firstly - i want to say sorry to joan rivers because that was slightly nasty.. okay very nasty but i still think she would have looked better without all the plastic surgery
secondly - boy (b) if you ever read this blog (unlikely) if i did scare you i apologise for making myself look easy/cheap, dancing like a ho, and sorta throwing myself at you a little bit (all under the influence of alcohol) but at the end of the day we all know im going to do it all again next time i go out although with out the easy/cheap part and the throwing myself around bit. dancing is inevetable. although if you did like it then your a dick for running away your drink could have waited and you hurt my feelings.

that is all.

p.s gus is still sick but alive nevertheless...

cuatro

the venting session

first vent:
mcdonalds: WORST FUCKING INVENTION EVER!
why does it have to be so damn cheap... so easily accessible and so tasty (while your eating it)
i have tried and tried again to ban myself from it but it just doesnt work.
im supposed to be on a healthy eating diet but no.. i get hungry and oh how convenient theres a fucking maccs... SO ANGRY!
i feel guilty as im ordering it, guilty as im eating it and guilty after eating it but i still eat it WTF!
it makes me feel ill after wards (i think partly because of the guilt) and yet i choose to continue wasting money there and getting pudgier fucksake
second vent:
boys: SECOND WORST INVENTION EVER!
on sunday night i was at my friends party out at a night club there were some attractive boys there so my friend and i danced over to them smiled etc then kept dancing. she ended up dancing with a boy(a) - cool, and i had my eye on his friend(b) so i started trying to dance with (b) but no response i asked (a) if (b) had a girlfriend just to make sure he replied no and that he was just shy.. FABULOUS i can deal with shy i just have to be crazier than normal(apparantly put this with drunk and you get yourself in a mess) so did the whole naww are you shy thing and he smirked and shyed away from my hand which was attempting to stroke his face (smooth move dipshit) then i made him dance with me (pretty unsuccessfully) and then i fucking kissed him WHO DOES THAT! fuckzake...
so basicly then he danced with me for a little bit longer he said something in my ear at the time which i thought sounded like 'your really pretty' but after stressing over this for the past few days what if it was 'your really easy' WHICH IM NOT!(just to clear any assumtions up) but yeah then he said brb going to get a drink and ran away... oh the shame...
so yeah basicly thats been doing my head in completely and utterly for the past few days.
i feel a little better having written it down but now everyone can see the failure i am. so basicly- EPIC FAIL
third vent:
plastic surgery: joan rivers looks like the joker from batman
im sorry to all the hk fans out there sure shes funny but WHAT WHATS SHE THINKING when she did that to her face its like a personal joke on herself! she would have been way better leaving it alone and growing old gracefully but granted she is rather hilarious saw her on just for laughs on saturday night had a chuckle at her material.
fourth vent:
pet fish: great invention sorta
my fishes/pet water snails provide me with endless hours of entertainment but tonight i found my pet fish gus looking sick :( hes orange and has black tips on his fins and hes hilarious. i wish he wasnt such a guts though cos when ever i feed him and the others he goes hell for leather to eat as much as possible as if its going out of fashion and the others just cruise around eating casually but no gus has to be a piglet in disguise as a fish and eat so mucht that he ends up floating upside down on the top of the water for the rest of the evening.. first few times had me panicked then it became such a regular happening i just got used to it and would nudge him to make sure he was just playing dead.
tonight i got home and he was on the bottom upside down which is very bizarre. occasionally he'll swim upright then get tired it looks like and go back to the bottom and upside down:( hope your going to be okay gus! (have given him fish medicine)

thats all i can handle venting for the moment other wise i think ill have a venting melt down and just end up smashing the keyboard so ill leave it there for everyone sake.

night all

g)

yellow jacket white dress

f)

pink school like dress

e)

blue blouse grey skirt

d)

orange skirt over white dress & wonderwoman belt

c)

pharaoh jumper and leather look leggings

b)

white dress with black striped jacket

a)

the white dress with green&black squares

trois

i lovelovelovelove them!
i have spent copious amounts of money in op shops and ebay in recent weeks and have decided to show you some of my buys!
over the next few weeks etc ill post bits and pieces of what im buying and wearing out and about!
hope you like my stuffs
ciao mama xx